for monami. I’m sorry for lying to you and hurting you. I pray (which I usually never do) that one day you can forgive me, and trust me again. I will always love you. Please believe that. Please know this poem was written from a place of truth and love.

you are my light-bringer dear
are you my dear night-bringer?
yes, indeed, the nights spark up
like a joint we share in bed 
swapping stories n spit n sex
n soliloquies on the art that made us

so my life with you is a cabaret
the landscape the stage 
where we retreat to commune 
with nature, to become natural 
again. that's why i luv the smell
of your armpits n your body
after working hard n dreaming
your life into existence.

i manifest my luv 4u
in the cracks 
in the sidewalk
in the gliding of birds
around my house
telling each other
it's time to go now 
it's time to slow down 
i give you a kiss, hence
i luv u forever
    in the present-tense

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I received a letter the other day. 
It was red. 
Its voice was red. 
I read it aloud
and was dead. 

riots and rumors 
of riots
of a war

rum-punch cakes
rummaging ruminating 
on it 

whispers of a war
of THE central problem
of life

inklings of it
in the air
where?

where next? where to?
word is
here

Two pigeons walked single file through the metro doors like they were human. 
I noticed they didn’t pay their fare. Typical. 

let’s don’t and say we did 

as in
let’s don’t fuck 
and say we did
let’s don’t suck
and say we did
let’s don’t know
and say we did 

let’s do and say we don’t 

as in
let’s play and say we won’t 
let’s cry and say we can’t 
let’s die and say we lived