lovely sometimes rarely maybe

and i was scared scared 
scared of existing 
of actually being real
i still am in fact
 frightened 
quite often
to this day. 
this long 
root of 
fear that keeps us quiet. 
no more 
no mas
no no more 
no no more 
nomas
enuf enuf enuf enuf
for a lifetime 
lasted enuf. ya. 
i thought i could
quiet the storm
inside me in the
water the water
could hold 
but no 
could not 
forever anyway 
out out 
out out of gut
now now 
always 
pouring and
spilling 
porous loose
lysander lye 
onto street
and cracks
and its lovely 
sometimes 
rarely maybe

Millennials Are Killing Capitalism: “It Feels Like The Goals Have Changed” – Karim from RAM-NYC and Wendy Trevino on the War in Ukraine and the Western Left

We wanted to have a critical conversation about the western left’s response to the war in Ukraine, but often we associate anti-imperialist analyses with Marxist-Leninists.  Within the anarchist left and other parts of the western left there are those who support the Ukrainian war effort for various reasons. Although we don’t often take explicit positions as a platform, we at Millennials Are Killing Capitalism think any support for the Ukrainian war effort is mistake. Josh has co-hosted a conversation on their other platform , and now we host this one here. In this episode Karim and Wendy provide an analysis of the situation in Ukraine, and they grapple with several of the common misconceptions or positions they encounter. They also talk about the state of affairs for the antifascist movement in the US. And they remind folks that there are many other international struggles that need support, and that there are struggles that need to continue to be waged against fascism, borders, and prisons right here in the belly of the beast.
— Read on millennialsarekillingcapitalism.libsyn.com/it-feels-like-the-goals-have-changed-karim-from-ram-nyc-and-wendy-trevino-on-the-war-in-ukraine-and-the-western-left

letter to a friend #5

change happens whether you care or not
revolution happens if you believe 
or not; empires fall always as a rule 
things can get worse or better
if you prepare 

my dear sister; i know the world 
has untold weapons against us
my dear sister; i know the words
alone will not convince you 
my dear sister; i am imploring 
you to fight 

not for fighting sake 
but for the future
nihilists have been 
proven wrong time
after time 

like meteorologists
or politicians 
a lack of caring 
a pessimism 
is not security 
it is a paper
tiger 

i love you and
live for you
even as i 
know 

you are no
longer 
my friend

alibis

what's your alibi for not living?
too many times i gave myself
all myself
to one who could never ever 
no, i blame myself more
what's your alibi for not giving?
too many times i lived a dream
i could not repeat 
it's like that 
what's your alibi for not trying?
i was too tired 
to finish the poem