how to 
keep it pushing 
in the face of
imminent doom?
i'm actually asking
how to 
keep my equilibrium
when the climate can't?
how to keep my cool
when youse testing me? 
how to do what it do
when it needs done?
how to slow my roll
and have fun?
lmk

ellipsis
go-between
loop soup
lilting lacerations
harmonizing harms
sewing scars 
grassing gashes
blending burns 

blinkered lights went off
i was softened 
by the night's blanket
stolen off the porch 
and brought back to bed 
astro black midnight blues
hues of me and you
central park green 
verdigris of the sea
the blue the black 
the bruising night
the red the red 
the red red light 
selah selah selah
say what time is it
say what time is it
it was pastime for us
to defend ourselves 
against the 
death-dealing system
the breath-stealing.
and we knew it but it
was still so fucking hard
and the brick wall the
every congealing thing
worked against us 
but we learned how to change
how to make their game obsolete
change ourselves and our ways
it was all so wonderful

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